scribbles (to be honest)
To be honest,
I wrote a lot about you.
I wrote a lot because of you.
I wrote a lot to you.
But I crossed everything out.
I threw away all of the pages.
I burned all of the feelings
And left them with the ashes.
There were a lot of mixed emotions
Scribbled in between the lines.
The ink just needed a simple command
To bleed through the other sides.
To be honest,
There was a series of things
I wanted to say to you.
I don't know what made me think
That you would actually read,
Let alone listen,
But I guess I just wanted it
Away from me
And out of me.
And, to my surprise,
The only one who was willing to listen
Was the one who has constantly been listening.
The pages
Filled with what I could not say
And the overflow of emotions
Are much stronger
Than you would have ever been.
To be honest,
I just wanted a home.
I guess I didn't even realize
That I created one of my own.
xx
ireneskylar.paek